Solemn Hour

Dear blog,

Today is Saturday. Hmm. Everything in the morning goes very smoothly, woke my twin up and she woke me up. Then I went over to mcdonalds and get my morning breakfast as my twin asked me to get. ^^. Well, after that I head to class. It was pretty much early, so I reach there and park my car and slowly sitting in the car relaxing and having usual cup of tea. Then after that I went into the class. The class started.

During noon, after my class has stopped. I went back to reach my car and started to dial to my twin. I was scared at the first place that, I don't know what is happening when I was in class. So I just dialed. The phone just got cut off. Hmm. I just dont know why, I took the car and head over to my usual Playground for DRIFT. So I just drifted there. I completed a Full Drift that I have never ever done that before. But in return I get my own body damage, I dislocated my arm and the tire blew. Its not so much I just got recovered from that.

I was scared, that my twin will leave me. I am so scared. I cant sleep at all or cant leave her alone. Then during evening, I went to my friend's Farewell Party. He is going off to Curtin Uni in Perth, Australia. Well, between that time, I had heart aching and I dont feel right in the first place. I felt something has happened to my twin. Ended up, something did really happen to my twin. I felt guilty and scared. I got even more scared, my heart just stopped as if my soul is just gone out from my body. Then, I cried without stopping infront of my twin. I really felt scared. I dont know what to do. Maybe if I compensate with my life? Is it better? I was thinking.