G-Kyssar-I

G-Kyssar-I (pronounced as g-kissa-ri) formed in 2009 November for anime event performance purposes.

Forming a band was not easy. Members of the band are not picked randomly.

Yes we share the same interest- Cosplay & Music

G-Gim (Lead guitarist)

K-Kazuki (Keyboardist+ male vocalist)

Y-Yukito (Bassist)

S-Shyen (Drummer)

S-Sumire (Female Vocalist)

A-Adrian (2nd guitarist)

I-Ian (Flutist)

GACC May 2010 was our first show. Everything was ready; the first sound check was perfect and the instruments at their tip top condition. Waiting to twang and hit. When it comes to our turn, everything was chaotic. The previous band that was performing changed all the tuning and settings and we have to start all over again. The sound man was missing in action. The emcee is calling plus the crowd is waiting. We don’t have the time to start everything all over again. No choice but to start. The nightmare starts as soon as our first song was ruined. The amp for our bass wasn’t working and then the same thing happened to our main guitar.. The drum they set up for us was semi-acoustic, so you imagine how crispy and soft it sounds? Cables are missing. No time for sound check. It got even saddening when the crowd does not understand what was going on and think it was a lousy performance. The overall sound was very hard to hear and sometimes too loud. We are supposed to perform 4 songs:

1^st-Sorairo Days ( Tangen Toppa Gurren Lagann)

2^nd-Dusk Till Dawn (Darker than Black 2)

3^rd-I for You ( as a tribute to Luna Sea)

4^th-Kouga Nippou Chou ( Basilik) * The song we practiced the most.

The emcee cut us down from 3 songs to 2 songs in the middle of the performance. Feeling so discouraged for not being able to bring the last song, I walk off the stage and leave the hall. That’s not the end, when we left. The emcee discredit our band by saying our performance was awful. It’s really disheartening when hard work does not pays off.

Question after question starts to clog my mind the moment we walked off, Am I good enough for the band? Was it my fault that I am not good enough to bring back the crowd? How do I face the rest of my band members after this performance? Will they hate me after this?

And I feel so remorseful for our drummer (Shyen).The reason he joined this band was to perform. A few years ago, he was supposed to perform in a major event but on the way he got into an accident and broke his leg. Unable to play drums for almost a year, he lost his chance to perform. I understand GACC was his chance to perform, yet still. It was a letdown for him.

The rest of our members said that it was not my fault and said it was some sabotage made to bring this GACC event down.

“I know this would happen” one of our band members said. Mostly people said it’s still not my fault, but I still feel the guilt inside me screaming “YOU COULD HAVE DONE BETTER THAN THAT”. Luckily a friend of mine, (seok hwa) spoke to me throughout the whole journey home and made me feel better.

The moment I close my eyes the whole scene of people walking away come into sight.. After a few sleepless nights, I finally snap out and stop feeling sorry for myself. I won’t drop a single tear for this stupid calamity. SHIT is most likely to occur in your life, so it’s okay to be fucked up once in a while.

Everyone in this band started up as strangers, but through the whole process we found “esprit de corps”

I will make myself better than ever, this I guarantee. I will not give up hope that easily.